its official

Its official, Im moving back to LA. I couldn't be more excited and scared all at the same time. I had asked Holy Spirit to speak to me about LA last night and often, one of the ways I feel that God speaks to me is thru songs, so this morning, I woke with the one line of a song in my head,

la la la la la, means I love you

and as we all know that LA is often referred to as LaLa land, I took that as, go get'm tiger.

I will let nothing stand in my way of what I am called to do and the influence I know that I will have on this world. My platform has always been a large one. So again as I journey with God, I am stepping out in faith. I forgot how invigorating it is to follow God and step out, It makes me feel alive again. I have his promises ya know, and I believe, I have faith. I can't wait to see what happens.

One thing that I have learned is this, if you arent scared even a tiny bit, its prolly not God. haha. Its natural to have some fear, but its more natural to let love and faith rule your heart. I will choose it everytime. faith... yeh, faith. Sounds familiar, I like that..., yeh I think I'll stick with that. I believe, thats righteousness and that keeps me close to God, so Im gonna stick with that.

2012. year of fulfillment

When Esther was being prepared to marry the king, she went thru a year preparation time. The first 6 months were a time of myrrh. Myrrh was a oil that was used for healing the body, it actually went down to cellular level and started a healing process. After the 6 months of healing she went thru 6 months of pampering. Myrrh was still used but there was more focus on the perfumes and other oils. She was to be presented to the king "spotless, free of blemish". I feel like I have been on this journey for the last 6 months of serious inner healing. I feel like I have started a journey that most are not willing to go on because it is so painful. Healing isn't the most fun but the most needed to have fun. I have been emmersed with myrrh in this last season, I know that there is still healing that needs to be done, but i also know that I am coming into my pampering season as well. I believe that this is what God is wanting to do. He is wanting to do it on a corporate level because its about to happen in our nation and we have to be ready. We have to be healed. One of the reasons that we can not go after our healing is because of lies that we have come into agreement with. And if we are not believing the truth, we are believing lies which is agreement with unbelief. The children of israel were not allowed to enter into the promise land because of unbelief. Its says (paraphrase) that "because you did not believe you could not enter" then it says " your sin has kept you from entering". So what was the sin? Unbelief. and unbelief is fear, and fear is lies. the promise land had their healings, the land of milk and honey. the promise land is your ' career, talent, gift, annointing, whatever you wanna call it" But before we can get there we have to come out of the agreement with the lies so we can get healed and walk into the promise land.