coming down

I use to be up there. but now I am level. where is the balance. where is the faith in balance. Is everything black and white. or do we walk thru life getting older to find out there is grey as well, and more grey than there is black and white. To admit there is more grey in life than definites is admitting that there is a lot that we do not know. As humans we dont like to admit that we dont know something. I am finding that there is something extremely freeing in not knowing. It kinda gives up the control in "having to know" how it all is going to work out and how it is suppose to work out. I think that there is more faith in the grey parts of life than there is the black and white parts of life. it makes life much more interesting not knowing, knowing that you have to TRUST that everything really does work out for the good of those who love. and LOVE HIM. I love the concept of love. I love God, He amazes me everyday. I hope that I never stop falling in love with HIM.

Im already gone

sadness arise as tears fall down.
my heart was on the stake when the fires were lit
now it burns with hurt and sorrow
leaving a glimmer of hope
for a better tomorrow

how did i get here once again
why did i let you in
i started to trust
i started to love
i was holding hope in my hand
but you let it go, you let me go
and this is where we stand

im saying goodbye for the last time
im saying goodbye and im not gonna be shy about it
I want you to leave, and never come back
I want you to walk away, and take all the pain that you caused
dont look over your shoulders, cuz im gonna be gone

you keep sending me letters, saying how you miss me
and how you wanna kiss me
and the phone calls never stop, although i never pick it up, when i hear your voice my heart drops.. its a little to late for you to show, that you care,i still love you but,

im saying goodbye for the last time
im saying goodbye and im not gonna be shy about it
I want you to leave, and never come back
I want you to walk away, and take all the pain that you caused
dont look over your shoulders, cuz im gonna be gone