involuntary suicide

showing me how to trust
learning how to love me
this is scary
involuntary, suicide

all that's coming out
beneath these smiling eyes
this is death
beyond the contrary
it is beautiful
involuntary, suicide

my heart is learning
how it loves
leaving behind painful memories
more room for all the love to carry
this is involuntary, suicide

this bitter death
brings the sweetest life
beauty found in every step
I feel the pain when mary wept
involuntary, suicide

I taste the freedom with His life
in His death
on the contrary this was
voluntary, suicide