faith

i feel like my entire life leading up to this moment has prepared me for what the rest of my life will look like. i have grown up in a home with a parent that taught us that faith, faith in God's goodness was the only thing we have to lean on, and it wont fail us in life. it is the only solid foundation that is strong enough to carry us through anything. i grew up with many times hearing my mom telling us to pray and believe for rent, food and clothes, bc we didnt have it. and then a random check in the mail, random groceries appear on our door, bags of clothes would be given to us. these were the testimonies of Jesus we have to tell. i have often thought that it was easy to believe, that when you have faith that you just believe, that it isnt hard, but as im writing this, im remembering what a good friend told me. the only fight we have to fight is the good fight of faith. the fight to believe. if the enemy can make us doubt, he can take out idenity in who we are, if we dont know who we are, we arent a threat. we arent dangerous to him. but to believe that He is good, that His word will prevail, His soverign word will overrule. He is faithful. He just is. that is a scary thing to our enemy. he doesnt want us to believe that our God, the God who spoke the world into exsistence can do anything, and absolutely everything is possible. i know what Papa has told me. im going to africa, my life is about to change so drastically even more so then now. and i just have to trust and believe...have faith that God will do what He says, bc he doesnt know how to lie. I love Him so much, more today then i did yesterday and more now, then in the last moment. i love Him more and more, the more i get to know Him.

Im going to africa...now i just need some serious fasting and prayer to release the finances. haha gooooooo Jesus.

so the word for today and everyday....just believe.

it will hurt you more to not believe than it will to believe.