He loves me

it is amazing to me how in one moment my plans can completely change. i think that im going to do one thing and Holy Spirit tells me to do another. my journey of traveling has not ended yet, and for some reason i dont think that its life span is very short. i thought that the last three months were going to be very dramatic and change me forever. well really what is up for the next three months i believe is going to be even more dramatic than the last. Holy Spirit is up to so much right now. It makes me realise that i need to know His love for me even more than i did yesterday. it is a good thing that i know that He is faithful. haha. there are times in my life when i wish that it wasnt so all over the place, but then i realise that will never happen as long as i make myself available to whatever it is Holy Spirit is doing, and then on the flipside of that, i feel that the closer im getting to Holy Spirit the more normal my life looks. to me it is about one thing, and that is Him loving me. out of that, everything else flows. He loves me, so when He tells me to randomly pack a bag and go somewhere....... i just do. sometimes going uuuuhhhhh, i really hope that was God, if not im screwed. haha. but He always comes thru. He always does. it is all about knowing that He loves you, because when you get that, you will always trust Him. I love Him so much, but nly because i know that He loves me.

merry christmas.

people it is christmas time and all the world is shining with lights. the one day in the world where it is a day celebrating Christ. that makes me happy. it is christmas time.

i feel joy in my heart. my best friend is coming to visit me in 5 days. i am almost weeing my pants. and i have a surprise for her also though. i cant wait. im not very good at keeping secrets. that is why i wait to buy christmas presents until the very last day. i gave laura her present yesterday. i couldnt keep it anymore. so well anyways, here is to a nice drink of bailey's. i have been drinking it up the last 2 days. very nice in deed. well here it is to a merry christmas.

cheers! merry christmas!!

planes, trains and automobiles

you know you are in London when you get locked in a train.


ok so last night after travelling for 36 plus hours., 20 plus in planes and airports, 5 in train stations, about 10 or so in cars and im still trying to get to Banbury. which is where i am spending christmas with lauras family. so i hop off one train to get to another. the guy gets out of where the train is run from, and i ask " is this the train going to banbury?" yes he replies. you can just get in and wait if you want it is warmer in there. so i say ok. hop in the train. there is no one there, but i wait anyways. im there for about 15 minutes and all of a sudden all the lights go out, the doors shut, and you can hear them lock. a guy walks by and locks them for the outside. i jump up, start pounding on the door, windows, frantically running thru the train pulling every emergency open for all the doors. im starting to freak out because the station is completely empty., and it is 11 at night, not a person in sight. i kinda get mad and start praying in the spirit comanding the doors to open. telling Holy Spirit i know that you can open these doors, open them. finaly after agreeing with the idea that im locked in a train for the night, i just might as well go to sleep. and also after seeing this playing out in my head, in the morning people getting on the train and here i look like im a homeless person, dirty (from africa) all my earthly belongings, i was just a bum looking for a place to crash and some how found one on the train. ..... well after that a guy walks by and i start pounding profusely on the doors again, he finally sees me and i told him to get someone to let me out. uh, yeah who does that happen to. me of course. so my first time taking trains in london by myself and i get locked in one. hahaha funny. i think it was just Holy Spirit having fun, because im sure looking down from heavens perspective it had to be very comical. i mean it was comical to me. after i had gotten out, and actually even while i was in there. only to me, is what i thought. and then i thought, and of course i have to be an american. that jsut makes us look even more ridiculious. but funny none the less. great story.

i love my life

you know you are in africa when you wake up with a rat biting your big toe, shake him off and roll back over to go back to sleep.

yeap people that is right. yesterday at 5 in the morning i woke with something crawling on me, i look up and there is a rat on my foot, i try to shake it off and it bites my toe. i roll over and go back to sleep. i had no reaction to this abnormal occurence. in my mind i was like "o, its a rat, geez not a rat, im tired" haha that is so funny. i guess when you live in africa you get use to things like that. flies that follow you everywhere with thier bzzz right in your ear constantly, or fly IN your eyeball or land on your lip. i mean i dont think american flies do that. where is the consideration. it is really violating. haha. mosquitos that bite you in the crotch and your bum. this is just a way of life, it is the normalicy that follows africa. it has been quite amazing. i wouldnt trade it for anything. bucket showers, or no showers. boobs everyhwere. children constantly telling you "nao bon missionary" which means you are no good missionary, haha... that has to be my favorite. people everywhere, never a time alone. not even in the bathroom. little kids like to peak at you while you are taking showers, and still i have no reaction to these things. it is normal. Goats that attack you and chase each other around and poop on your veranda daily.....wow what africa has been. i love it. the constant smell of poop and b.o. .... something i still havent gotten use to. serisously, im gonna miss africa. all these things have kept us laughing hysterically. so many good times. so many good stories to tell. i really love my life.

unknown

my life. in this life, im not sure of much. im not sure where i'll be in 3 months. im not sure what my life will look like. im not sure if i'll ever be in africa again, although i would love to. im not sure what the next moment looks like. but i am sure of one thing, and that is God is good. I love Him and He loves me. I feel a bit sad today, the thought of leaving a lifestyle that was at first a bit like "can we get on with this" has now become a life that is simple relaxing and real. to live in community and be around people constantly can at first be a bit annoying, but as i realise that i only have a week left, it makes me sad. i have made some really good friends and some friends that have just gone a bit deeper. knowing that i go to london after this with no idea what it looks like and how long i will be there, stepping into the unknown again, the unfamilar once again. not being sure of anything but that God is good. i guess that is the place we should all be all the time, but it is scary sometimes. i know that everything will be taken care, God always does take care of things. im gonna miss this time here. i really have enjoyed my time here in africa, i thank God that i was able to do this and have this experience. im thankful that i got to spend it with the people that are here. alex and tyler have been lifesavers....hahaha all out laughs. well here i go again... stepping out. God catch me!