stranded

stranded in this place
only to be abandoned to Him
once again here is my heart
here is my soul
this is my only part to play
to give it all.

im starving for your attention
hungry for your touch
trying desperately to hide it
putting it off
living in a place where
there is no where to reach me
ive been in self destruct for so long
this place with walls around it
walls of steel, walls that are strong
you touch them, only to fall
im crumbling inside, your arms opened wide
im standing back, looking on
only wanting to believe, although i can not see.
im stuck, i cant move, im not sure i can do this again.
i so desperately want to. but will He follow thru.
you are my question, you are my answer.
if i dont believe, i can not see.
i want to run, run into your arms
teach me Lord, to believe, to see, to trust, to love.
can you reach me? im malnourished, im in need.
im afraid. there is fear. what will happen?
my heart is filled with tears
i know you are good.
i know you are good.
i left but now im back
this has been the cycle
leave and then return
my heart desperately wants to learn
your ways, what it is you say
how you think
your mysteries
teach me o, Lord
you captivate me
saturate me
im scared, please dont
that hurts, can i go there?
this love it is feroious
a force with no limits
one focus in mind
it will reach me
ready or not here i come
you cant hide, im gonna find you

so here i am again
stranded in this place
only to be abandoned to Him
once again here is my heart
here is my soul
this is my only part to play
to give it all.