time

it is early, i had an intense night. it has begun. the joy of it. last night as i sat with a friend we were talking of what HS is doing, and how He is moving right now. He is moving with haste. it is time. time to answer the question that He has been asking. what will you say? there is a price involved a high one. this is not a question that is answered lightly. it is funny, although more than anything i really wanted to go to Holy Given in Mozambique, i knew there would be a price invloved, i knew that my life would be forever changed and i could never go back to life as "normal" again. although i knew that i would go, there was still a wrestling inside of myself. why? bc i knew that i would have to die. priscilla could no longer be alive, not even just a little bit, to live the life Papa has created for me. so here i go again, another layer of death. but this time, i hope i die all the way. i want to be laid down for the purposes of HS. i want to go where He goes, i want to say what He says, i want to look like Him, smell like Him, i want to do whatever it is He is doing. that is the lifestyle i want to live. to be a laid down lover of Christ. so what is the price? death. do you wanna die? that is the question. are we so willing to give our lives that we will die? that is what He needs. He needs a generation that will be nameless, faceless, agendaless. a people who will stand on the mountain top and proclaim His goodness to the world no matter what the cost. He is looking for a heart that is willing, saying here i am use me. We have been wasting His time, we have said no for to long. even the stones will cry out, creation will praise Him if we dont. Luke 19:40. He will get what He paid for. He will. He is gathering an army to carry out His word. i want to be apart of it. it is time. it makes me think of Lord of the Rings. the return of the King. You see Jesus is coming back as a regining King. there will be a war and many battles. He is coming back with a fierceness in His eyes to take back what is His. and He wants to use us. to let all creation know He is King of Kings. King of Glory. the Alpha and Omega. the Beginnng and the End. He is. man writing this makes me excited that i am a part of the army of God. i know that sounds cheesy but funny enough it is true, and im ok with that.