climbing or jumping?!?!?!

the right trac. what does that look like?!?!?! well i hope that im on it. another shift has happened. this is good. a little scary but good. how many times have you heard me say that i dont know what this looks like? so many. if i had a dollar for everytime i thought or said that i'd be wealthy. that is for sure. most would not like to live my life. atually most live my life but think that they are living someone else's. meaning that most people think that they know where they are going in life, what it looks like, when inreality it always changes and never looks like what they expected and then they are all disfigured. i just start out disfigured and know from the start what it looks like. messy! since i have been back the idea of LA has been jumbled in there somewhere, sometimes close and sometimes far away. it is easy to get comfortable to live a life that is going no where and has no meaning. sometimes i am alright with that. but this isnt one of those times. im going to LA in april to see if im going to move out there. it seems like God is opening up some doors and there is opportunity for me to do what im into. fashion, hair, makeup. things im good at. there is room for improvement but that is in any area of my life. so this is a time where i face what im scared of and do it. if it doesnt work then at least i will know. i need to give a try at least, and i feel like i am in a good spot in my life to do so. im learning about myself more and more. the more i live, the more i become alive. so once again, this will be another mountain i climb or jump off of?!?!?! we will see which it is.