listening?

well over the last couple of hours I have realized that I am not a very good listener. HS tells me things and I have this overwhelming feeling that it is Him but yet I dont listen b/c I want to do what I think is best. I hate that. man I need so much more of Him in my life. I need to listen better, hear HIm better. yeh I am realizing that I really do suck. I hope that inspite of my suckiness, He continues to still trust me. I know that He will. but it is kinda a harsh moment when u realize that He has no reason to but He always will. I guess that is why I love Him. I love Him and always will. Papa, HS, Jesus I love you and I am glad that you love me and trust me inspite of myself.