blind date

funny. tonight i am going on a blind date. he is a country music singer. but i hate country music. we talked on the phone and i told him that i didnt want to talk music, he has to be creative and find something else to talk about. this should be interesting. he does his hair, like wears gel in it, that could potentially be annoying. i dont even spend that much time on my hair. haha. anyways, he seems pretty funny. i guess we will see what happens. at least it is a free meal, and sushi my favorite. i dont think that he loves Jesus, so obviously that wont work if that is the case. and besides that fact that im pretty sure that im moving to LA. but i told God that i wanted to go out on a date even if i wasnt interested. i just wanted to know that someone is interested. so i guess that is happening. im kinda interested in someone else, but i havent really meet him either, just thru a friend. but he is funny and i get to meet him soon enough. and when i say interested, i mean just interested in meeting him... cuz who knows? who knows anything... i mean really. i sure as hell dont. i just know that i love Jesus and that i want my heart to be soft to recieve all of His love for me in whatever capacity that looks like. i want to be full of His love for me.

well better get ready for this date... im just wearing what i have on, and putting some mascara on and that is about it. im not in for impressing anyone tonight. im done with that shyte. im just going to be me.