i am weak

there is so much to say but i dont know how to get it out. my life is screaming something that i dont understand. my heart has been broken of something that was inside but was never there. everything that is deep is in the shallowest part of me, it is all within reach. if you want to see it you dont have to dig deep. i feel like im in a hallway, going somewhere that i have never been before but yet it is all to familiar. wait, the smell of this house. this is a familiar smell. o, and that soft touch, i know that hand. the tenderness of the way He says my name. the gentle smile that says it all, those eyes are all to loving. i remember now. i am home. i am home when i am with you Jesus. and i am with you wherever i go. where ever i go i am home, because you never leave me. i am weak, but you are strong and i lean on you. i feel that i need to write for weeks to get this all out. i am weak, i am weak. i am weak. i am in need. i am in so much need. take this soul, and make it pure. take this heart and make it whole. take my hand and walk with me in it. i am weak. i am dependent on you completely. i need you to rescue me Jesus. please come and save me from myself. give me your grace, your mercy, give me your love. i need your love. so much of it. please come and make me like you. i am being real, i am being as transparent as i know to be. i am weak.